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Emotional Unavailability is Now Over
Sometimes we all just need to choose to have fun
My first book ended with the premise that I was ready to meet the other half of my soul. I was in a beautiful place when I wrote those words pre-COVID. Then I got dragged into the whole twin flame journey with someone I have zero clue, as of now, is actually my twin flame. I’m currently watching my entire life fall apart (which is common on the journey) and, despite asking the Universe to slow its roll, there has been no real release of the wackadoodleness of psychic experiences, synchronicities and overall pace of the initiations. I’ve experienced profound soul loss, have felt that my body is not my body, and have had a terrible time integrating energy. It does not feel loving right now and I’ve wondered if there is something else going on. Some simple reiki and meditation on light and love has not been enough to battle these energetic feelings — all of which, has led to the experience of being disconnected from God and spirituality.
It has also induced a level of anger and rage I’ve not experienced in a very long time.
In these moments of contemplation, I often return to my Gene Keys chart. I have found that Richard Rudd’s writings to be comforting and the information resonates with me. My profile is complicated and, apparently, represents the change that most of humanity will…
