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Spiritual Death and Rebirth
What it is like in the midst of major transformation and change
I have not been writing much in recent weeks despite my desire to help others thrive. The truth is that I have been going through tremendous spiritual change since COVID and it has been difficult for me to process and to understand. So many of us have these spiritual initiations and few of us have the support we need to make it through the process. I am not an expert in this area but I did feel the need to write about where I am now.
And the process is down right scary.
When January 2020 arrived, I felt fantastic and ready to meet someone to fall in love with and move on to the next chapter of my life. I did not imagine that I would be walking into a huge dark night of the soul made complete by in real life monsters who sought to punish my views of modern psychology, tell me that I was not a good writer, or drain my energy to the point of not knowing if I would ever recover it. I have also had multiple experiences of men trying to usurp my authority and push me around — both physically and spiritually.
While we are on a spiritual journey, we have to come to terms with the fact that there are people out there that may or may not have your best interest at heart. I continue to choose to believe that all of these difficulties are important for my future life…
